I hate nights like these. I am so beyond tired….had an amazing day but laying here in the dark listening to music, and all I can do is think of everything in my life that is going on. I just wish you were still here so I can talk to you about what’s going on and get your heart warming hug, tell me its going to be okay and give me advice.

Please body..well more like brain please shut off all this thinking and just fall asleep.

Scared, sad, disappointed, happy, nervous, annoyed, etc. & so many of them are just making me want to cry because I don’t know what to do.

Things going on with the family. Missing someone. C asking all these questions about why am I acting different with him. R seeing me all day today and being nicer than usual. Some friends are annoying the shit out of me. & I feel some friendships fading.

I guess all I really need is a good night sleep and hope for the best through out each day. Take one day at a time.

Hope tomorrow is a better day.